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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      F/M
  Fandom:
      So_Weird
  Relationship:
      Bricriu/Fi
  Character:
      Carey_Bell, Bricriu, Fiona_"Fi"_Phillips
  Additional Tags:
      Dark, Pain, Loss_of_Virginity, Anal_Sex, Bondage
  Stats:
      Published: 2013-05-11 Words: 1510
****** His Name ******
by DarkThoughts
Summary
     This is a very dark alternate ending to the series. Read at your own
     risk. Very graphic.
Notes
     A.N. Very dark stuff. Underage, nonconsensual sex. I don’t own So
     Weird.
 
    Looking back, I really should have realized something like this could
happen.  There were constant warnings that I was messing around with things I
didn’t understand.  And I even tried to go straight, making that deal with....
 I don’t know his name.  Not anymore.  But it all kept happening and I had to
do something.  It’s in my blood.  O’Shianhan blood, Phillips blood....  How
could I resist?
 
    But the deal was broken then.  It took awhile for things to really come
back on me, but when they did....  I shudder at the memories.
 
xXx
 
    “Hey Fi!  How are you?”  Carey’s smile was warm as he hugged me, his larger
frame dwarfing my petite one.
 
    “I’m good!  Where is everybody?”  Confusion bloomed on my face as I looked
around at the abandoned bus, a tinge hurt that no one but Carey had come to see
me.
 
    “They all went out with Annie.  Big goodbye thing.  Didn’t think you’d want
to go,” he told me, tugging me to sit down.  “Yeah, hard to believe she’s
leaving the road.  You should really come back with us, Fi.”  He grinned a bit,
letting his arm fall around my shoulders.
 
    A little weirded out by his affection, I just brushed it off as his older
brother instincts taking hold with no Clu around.  “I don’t think I can, Carey.
 When will they be back?”
 
    “Tomorrow.  They’re getting a hotel.  I sort of told them you weren’t
feeling well and I’d stay here to take care of you.  And why not go back on the
road.  You’ve already broken our deal, Little Duck.”  His voice changed then,
taking on an Irish lilt.
 
    My blood ran cold and I tried to jump up, only to be knocked back down.
 “Get out of my friend!”
 
    “But I like it in here, Little Duck.  In fact, your man is fine with me
being in here.  Approves of most of what I want.  You broke our deal.  I would
be within my rights to stop protecting your wee family.  I’ve decided to be
merciful though.  You keep searching for the truth, I keep protecting you, and
you repay my kindness with devotion.”  His grin was broad and grotesque on
Carey’s handsome features.
 
    “What do you want from me?” I demanded, not understanding what he meant by
devotion.  However, that became clear along with the horrifying realization it
was all planned for when he pinned my wrists above my head and tied them
together and to the base that held the bunk bed above.  “Get off me!”
 
    “Oh, no, I quite like it here, Fi.  Your man does too.  He’s been thinking
about this a long time.”  He kept me pinned down with his body as he unbuttoned
my shirt.  His eyes roved over me as he pushed up my skirt.  “Since you’ve been
such a bad girl, I’m going to have to punish you.”  Malicious glee entered his
eyes.
 
    Horrified, I watched as he unzipped pants, tugging them down just enough to
get his massive penis out.  I’d never seen one, but I knew it was big and the
idea of it going anywhere near where I knew he wanted to put it made me sick
inside.  “Please don’t.”
 
    My pleas only seemed to excite him further.  He pushed my cotton panties
aside, not even bothering to take them off.  There was no exploration or
preparing.  This was punishment.  When he slammed himself into my dry entrance,
his face contorted in utter pleasure.
 
    I screamed at the feeling of being torn open.  He didn’t wait for me to
adjust in the slightest and as he pulled out and thrust into me again, tears
ran down my cheeks. I was being torn in half and he was enjoying it.  The only
thing lubricating him was my own blood and I felt like puking.  “It hurts...
 Please....”  The pain only seemed to increase as he thrust his hips harder,
seeming to go deeper.
 
    His body began to shake and he stiffened as something hot and sticky filled
my insides.  He relaxed after a moment and kissed me, his voice changing.  It
was Carey’s voice again, and that was so much worse.  “Sorry Fi.  You’re just
so sexy.  I’ve waited so long to do this.  Don’t worry, now it’ll get better.”
 He eased out of me and pulled my blood stained underwear off and down my
shaking legs.  Unzipping the skirt, that came next.  Realizing he couldn’t get
my bra or shirt off without untying me, he pulled out a switchblade and cut
them away.
 
    Vulnerable and still silently crying, I was relieved for a second when he
stood.  It was short lived however and I sobbed aloud when he took off his
shirt and slid his pants all the way off.  “Carey, if you’re in there, come
through.  Tell me his name and we can banish him.  Please Carey, you’ve got to
be stronger.”
 
    Convulsing, the male clutched his head, expression grim.  “Fi!  Oh god!
 Fi....”  His strained voice gave me hope.  “He’s so strong, he’s.....  Oh,
wait.  I took out Carey’s soul.”  Laughing at my horrified expression, he kept
using the voice of my friend.  “I learned everything about him, so no one even
notices the difference, Fi.  But I wasn’t lying before.  He really did want you
this way.  Used to take your little panties and jack off with them.  Once, he
had a girlfriend dress like you and they roleplayed him saving you from ghosts
and you were so grateful you got on your knees and sucked him off right there.”
 Chuckling, he pressed his lips to mine and trailed them down my throat.  “You
were attracted to him too, weren’t you?”
 
    Repulsed, I squirmed, tears welling in my eyes as he spoke.  It couldn’t
be....  Shame racked my body when his lips stopped at my breasts, licking and
nipping around my sensitive peaks. Pain still pulsed through me, but this was
almost worse.  My body felt traitorous as it responded to his little touches.
 I let out a moan of both pain and pleasure when he pinched the little nerve
bundle between my legs, and sobbed when he slid a finger inside me.  “Stop....”
 
    “No, I want you to enjoy our lovemaking,” he told me with false gentleness
in his eyes.  He slid a second finger into my abused core and rotated them so
he hit something sensitive inside me.  When I jolted he smirked and moved his
head down between my legs, running his tongue over my clit before sucking it
into his mouth.
 
    I was in agony as he worked my body, the movements of his fingers and the
attentions of his mouth bringing unwanted pleasure to my aching body.  Tension
built slowly, but surely and I cried out softly as my body clenched around his
fingers.  Now I was broken.  Not only had he raped me, he’d made me enjoy it
and I was so utterly disgusted with myself for it.  I didn’t even fight when he
turned me on my stomach, a whimper escaping my lips due to the strain on my
bound wrists.
 
    Seeing how broken I was, he pulled my restraints so my wrists were still
bound together but not to the bed.  “You just be a good girl, Little Duck.  It
gets easier.”  He pushed himself inside me and leaned over to lick my tears
away.  “But it has to get worse before it gets better.”  He pulled himself from
me and I felt relieved and confused.  Then he pulled my butt cheeks apart and
before I could register what he was doing, he shoved himself into my asshole.
 
    Nothing compared to that pain, that violation.  My screams were loud and I
wondered how on earth no one heard them outside the bus.  My whole body rocked
with the force of his thrusts and I was sobbing piteously,  “Please, stop...
 I’m begging you.”  My pride was broken and I couldn’t breathe.  When my pleas
seemed to send him over the edge, I felt bile rise in my throat as I felt that
hot sticky liquid coat my stinging insides.
 
    Withdrawing from me, he took on Carey’s demeanor again and kissed my neck.
 “Oh, Fi....  You’re amazing.  So much better than Annie.  I’m glad I get to
keep you.  You can investigate all you want, no fear for your family.  And at
night, you’ll pay me for my protection.  Back on the road!  It’s so perfect.”
 
    My eyes were puffy from crying and I couldn’t form words as sobs racked my
body.  When I felt him hard against my back again, I wanted to die.
 
xXx

    That’s how it’s been.  I’m done with school.  I’m actually going to go to
college.  He’ll be coming with me, the excuse being he’ll finally finish the
degree he started.  Every night, he rapes me.  He says now that I’m eighteen
he’s going to marry me soon.  I don’t have a say.  But the second I know his
name, I won’t banish him....  I’ll kill him.
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